An April 13,2017 entry
I needed some help. I had to go to physical therapy to help relieve the tightness preventing me from holding my back up straight. I have been working on the transverse abdominal to build core muscle and I have been walking to help build overall strength but My body started fighting back. For example, last night I was awaken from sleep by tinnitus, ringing in the ear. It can make you think you are going to loose your mind if it does not stop. I ran into the kitchen for no reason at all (maybe I thought I could outrun it). Then I prayed. I did find some comfort…more like peace. The ringing still lasted for hours. See, I told you I needed some help. Today was my first day back to physical therapy in several months, so after reevaluating things, we did a light massage and light exercises. They instructed me to work on my own doing the various stretches: neck stretches, chest stretches, and slight trapezius back stretches. They were simple but when coupled with massage followed by a heating pad, I walked out feeling so much better.
Physical therapy has become a safe place to be totally honest about how I feel. The chronic pain limits how much I can exercise, but in physical therapy it is understood and they don’t think negatively of me for it. Pain management is very important in preventing other major issues like high blood pressure. The doctor says I can’t take prescription medication for pain because of the side effects experienced when I did try them. Since I’m unable to take the regular prescribed medications, I have to manage it all naturally. No complaints…in fact I’m grateful. Although it is more challenging, it is not impossible. I’m encouraged in knowing that “all things are possible”. I’m not alone in this journey, God is with me.